No matter how dirty your past, it is ok to move on. Getting dragged down by our past mistakes and failures will have a detrimental effect on our ability to live in the present. Going over the long list of things you wish you had said or done is not only completely pointless but is keeping you stuck. Babe do you really want to go back? Let it go, it's incredibly freeing to own up to your past mistakes, take responsibility for your past but leave it there. Your past does not have to be your present and it most certainly doesn't define you. Fucked up? Left a trail of broken hearts and cringe moments? Burnt more bridges than the average? Perfect hun, you're in the right place to use your past to push you to a better future, a clearer mindset and becoming a kinder human. So really I should be congratulating you. CONGRATULATIONS BOSS!
My sassy honeypot as past mistakes go I've made so many bad and very questionable choices, My mindset was stuck in the past for many years, I wanted to "fix" everything i'd left broken. I'd replay my mistakes again and again to the point of tears, didn't get much else done. I had to end this cycle of guilt, shame and self-destructive thoughts. I had to make peace with having a past I would change if I could. I realised by me living in that mindset I was going back to the 18-year-old me, fuck that. Change is something that has pushed my life in all the right ways and id never go back. That was it, i'd learnt who I was and who I didn't want to be. I packed up my shit and got the fuck out of there. Accept you can't change, edit or erase your past, it comes down to choice, you have the choice to let go of the past no matter how painful. You can't move forward and achieve great things if you're holding on to negative emotions.You have the power to start over every day.